There was a time I wore my identities very tightly around me. Some of them were very essential for my protection and state of well-being. Daughter, sister, wife, daughter-in-law...these were vital ones. Much needed for self-preservation, safety and security. In midst of this, I tried that of a dancer. It gave me a sense of …
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Lesson 18: I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my seeing
Dear S, Wanted to share something interesting with you. From afternoon, I have been wanting to fight with you. I have noticed that when I feel down, I am really in a closed space. Can't take any form of feedback. I know you will say I am always closed, and I will say look who …
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The clock is ticking
Past few days, I have been feeling like I am on a countdown. As though the clock is ticking and I can hear it inside me, around me, everywhere. And I am left wondering - I don't know how much time is left for this countdown to end. I sat for days watching the clock …
Whom will you hang out with today?
A couple of days ago, I chanced upon the video of Oprah talking to Adyashanti, on her Super Soul Sunday show. The way Adyashanti was talking about living life connected with me. The word 'dignity' popped into my head. I thought about GD and how he lives. I thought about a few more people I …
Discovering who I truly am
I have known for years that the spiritual path leads to the discovery of "Who I am." Honestly, I had no clue what that really means. My mind has always assumed that the discovery of who-I-am would mean a series of mind-blowing, earth-shaking, soul uplifting experiences. Today as I sat transcribing one of my conversations …
The quest for perfection
For a few days now, I have been restless about judging my dad for something. Spirituality brings with it the awareness that judgements we have about others is usually something we judge ourselves for. But it is never easy to look at the things that make you uncomfortable, and so, for a few days now …
The ways of grace
In what has been a tough year, the shower of grace has been both unexpected and welcome. The body has been battered and yet there has been enough grace to see that even in the lowest moments, there has been the support of some remarkable individuals I am privileged to know. What I thought was …
Laws of 20 minutes
Is it possible to move beyond the mind? I look around me at my family and friends, and feel no. How earth do ‘I’ ever do it? Then I look at my teacher GD, my god Sai Baba, all the spiritual teachers across the earth, and I feel this peace, this possibility emerge inside. ‘Of …
The gift of discomfort
A couple of weeks ago, I experienced a mini anxiety-attack. It came after a long gap of two years. I thought I had broken all ties with anxiety, tapped all remnants of it out of my system, and bid it a grand goodbye. And so when it knocked on my door again, I was flabbergasted …
Wasting my day
The first thing that someone usually asks when they meet you is, how are you? This is usually followed by - what are you doing lately ? Increasingly, I find that this is a difficult question to respond to. Questions such as why are you so busy and what do you do for a living …
as IS, so I AM 