You never really know you are on a spiritual quest. Chaos, confusions, pain, love, longing… experiences take you on a journey you don’t understand. It is almost impossible to know that – what you are looking for is not something outside, but something inside.
But sometimes, just sometimes, some of us are lucky to find a teacher. A person whose presence makes you stop running behind your mind. In him or her, you glimpse something that you like, something that you want. And it is then that the journey truly begins.
This is a journey that can seem un-ending sometimes. Even with a teacher, you can wander for years. The mind rebels. It holds onto its knowledge, intelligence, greatness and specialness. It questions the teacher, challenges the teacher. Till you begin to realise that “maybe I don’t really know anything.” You see being nothing is everything. It is freedom. This comes in small glimpses.
It takes a lot of time before you begin to look inside; before you can glimpse the peace, love that reside inside. And yet, you walk on because who is walking with you… Once you have sensed God’s presence, you can’t stop and want to walk all the way home.
At some point of time, we sense that spirituality is simple. ‘You’ are not. It is then that you begin to look at making your life simple and begin to take small steps towards trust.
Grace, God and Guru can get you on the path. But it is your willingness that will decide if you really move ahead on it. When you truly choose the path, you begin to experience, the beauty, the miracles, the support that exists even in the toughest of times. All you need is faith and patience. This is easier said than done. Even I have struggled and continue to struggle sometimes, as I look beyond my ego- mind and look for God.
The easiest way, I keep remembering what needs to be remembered, is with the prayer below. Written by my teacher, GD, for our spiritual circle, it is the most accurate reminder of what spirituality is all about. Of course the simplest things are the hardest to practice. But I pray, let that in no way be a deterrent to your path.