The dishes clattered loudly as I threw them into the sink. Pausing for a moment, I waited to see if she responded. When she did not, I continued cleaning. I pushed the drawers shut roughly. I sighed and muttered to myself. Though I wanted to make it perfectly clear that I was irritated and angry, …
Continue reading Lesson 11: My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world
The clock ticked as I tossed around the bed. I shouldn’t have stayed up late drafting that article. Why did I send that? Did I really need the money? Or was I craving some attention? It had been years since I had sent a query. What would the editor think about it? Should I have …
Continue reading Lesson 8: My mind is preoccupied with past thoughts
Baba:- On the topic of special relationships, wanting specialness and belonging, I want you to understand that when I said you are not special, but you are all special to me, I also meant 'you all belong to me, God.' Everyone belongs to me. If you look deeper, you will see that all times, the …
Lesson 5: I am never upset for the reason I think Lesson 6: I am upset because I see something that is not there Walking up to the cupboard, I clutched the money tightly. As I kept it inside the safe, I couldn't help but wonder if the money I had just withdrawn would be …
Baba, if all this is a dream, an illusion, then why create something? Why choose? Why gift a human the potential of choice, of creation? Sai Baba- Because that is how the manifested world works. Since, there is a belief that you exist, there has to be a choice. The whole ‘game’ here is to …
When something doesn't go our way we feel gloomy. We lose hope, we feel discouraged. This often translates to a very physical feeling of fatigue and exhaustion. What we are feeling is dis-spirited... without spirit. We feel abandoned, we feel a sense of loneliness. Contrast this with the the state of creativity. Creation is the …
“Three, two, one, lift,” Mr. Nair instructed. Our hands wrapped around Dad’s hips, his hand across each of our shoulders, we hoisted him up to a standing position, before carefully helping him into the bed. I watched Mr. Nair carefully adjust a pillow for Dad and check if he was all right. I turned to …
Continue reading Lesson 3: I do not understand anything I see
The lights shimmered and glistened. The huge stage ahead felt so intimidating. Holding on to the armrest, I leaned ahead on my seat, waiting for my name to be called. My heart pounded in my ears. Would I be able to hear my name? Would I be able to get up and walk to the …
Continue reading Lesson 2: I have given everything I see all the meaning it has for me
The whirring of the mixer startled me. I had just sat down to meditate! Ignoring the irritation trying to make space in my mind, I tried to focus on my breath. No. It wasn’t working. Walking to my desk, I picked up the headphones and turned on my favourite meditation music. Ah, this was nice. …
I found myself in nature today. I wanted to believe she had missed me…was waiting for me to come. But I know I was deluding myself with such thoughts. In my absence, she was herself all along. A colour here, a texture there, she had not changed her habits a bit. If anything she had …
