Rebirth I sit in this chair Surrounded by a few plants Breathing in the discussions of the motley birds watching the overgrown bamboo bend under its own weight I have been cowed down by my own inaction with simple inabilities to persevere looking back at all I didn’t do I feel no remorse no guilt …
Category: Personal
Happy New Possibilities
Why is that on one day at the end of a calender year, we are compelled to recap on the previous 365 days? Why is it that we are consumed with a desire to judge, evaluate and decide what should have been and what should have not the year ago? The promise of newness probably …
Unfocus
Since last Sunday's session with GD, my spiritual teacher, I have found a cue-word to re-connect with awareness and reset the mind. The word is Unfocus. At the session we spoke about how the things we view as pleasure are the very things that create our pain. Then we spoke about awareness and staying in …
Oblique rants 2
At some moments, a greater intelligence speaks with urgency. Her voice tells me lessons that I have closed my worldly ears to. So she nudges my heart and asks it to set my mind free. Often she succeeds and then her wisdom lends itself to me. Like a road trodden by a million feet, my …
Conversations with God
An excerpt from a conversation with my 2yr 8 month old :- Me: You keep asking me why for every little thing Pranav. I don't know everything! Pranav: Why don't you know everything? Me: Because only God knows everything and I am not God. Pranav: I know everything. I am God. Me: Fine. You are …
Being a woman
is learning to be ok with what you dislike to be happy, sad or neutral, learning to live your emotions making an uninfluenced choice is finding freedom in little things - a meal, book or dance, to float even when you think life is tied down, to sink so you rise above is knowing to …
6 bags and a new life
As I filled bags with thing to bring to the US, I scanned through seven years worth of accumulated things. Some things I gave away, others I packed and stored. But the memories, lessons, gains and losses of seven years have all come here with me. Sitting on the flight, I was determined to make …
Today
Buddha finds no receptive heart to speak words to. In a land prostituted a billion times who calls compassion a virtue? Water now comes in shiny plastic with a double figure price, tigers are preyed on killed for their skin and insides, a woman is murdered for using her will or mind, man is classified …
Confessions of a moody mind
International Woman's day is usually a day when I pray for all the wonderful women in my family and life. But this year, woman's day meant something different to me. After a hard 2010 year-end, 2011 is to me a chance to deal with all that unfolded last year and a chance to celebrate me. …
Coping with a mother’s death
My essay about dealing with my mother's death has been the most viewed post on this blog ever. Even after years , it continues to be a post viewed by many. 14 years have passed since Amma's death but her absence continues to be the biggest void in my life. While I once thought I …
