There was a time I wore my identities very tightly around me. Some of them were very essential for my protection and state of well-being. Daughter, sister, wife, daughter-in-law...these were vital ones. Much needed for self-preservation, safety and security. In midst of this, I tried that of a dancer. It gave me a sense of …
Category: Musings
The clock is ticking
Past few days, I have been feeling like I am on a countdown. As though the clock is ticking and I can hear it inside me, around me, everywhere. And I am left wondering - I don't know how much time is left for this countdown to end. I sat for days watching the clock …
Poetry – On writing
Always I have waited, for words to be wise before they are permitted on paper, evaluated, judged and criticized for accuracy lest they be decried as mere crap. A mask of intelligence seemed necessary, vulnerability was deemed un-necessary, always it felt more important to hide, all that actually needed to be shown. Moments rare are …
The quest for perfection
For a few days now, I have been restless about judging my dad for something. Spirituality brings with it the awareness that judgements we have about others is usually something we judge ourselves for. But it is never easy to look at the things that make you uncomfortable, and so, for a few days now …
Water as an entity
A few days ago, a river in New Zealand was granted the status of a person. Soon, Ganga and Yamuna were granted the status of people. https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/mar/21/ganges-and-yamuna-rivers-granted-same-legal-rights-as-human-beings While it remains to be seen what this decision will mean in terms of protecting the rivers, it feels like a step in the right direction. But what …
Forgiving yourself
Most of us live in the past. Our wrong choices are reminders of our incompetence and we would rather stay in the comfort of failure than to step beyond it and risk failure again. And so guilt becomes our friend. It is easier to choose guilt than change. Why? Because it is easier to live …
Happy New Possibilities
Why is that on one day at the end of a calender year, we are compelled to recap on the previous 365 days? Why is it that we are consumed with a desire to judge, evaluate and decide what should have been and what should have not the year ago? The promise of newness probably …
Staying on course
Whenever I step away from my truth, Illness draws me back inside. It makes me re-connect with the fragility of my body and take a good hard look at what I consider real life. Being sick is my body's not-so-sly way of banging my head against a wall and telling me to relook the direction …
Oblique rants 2
At some moments, a greater intelligence speaks with urgency. Her voice tells me lessons that I have closed my worldly ears to. So she nudges my heart and asks it to set my mind free. Often she succeeds and then her wisdom lends itself to me. Like a road trodden by a million feet, my …
Friendships, feelings and forgiveness
I have few close friends and even fewer people seem to get me. At first I thought there was something wrong with me. Then I felt that I didn’t communicate enough. With time I have realized that the problem is dual. First of all, I don’t speak too much about me. When I don’t speak …
as IS, so I AM 