It had been a while and the pain had not abated. Taking one more sip of the warm water, I prayed that the pain subsides. I looked besides me to ensure the phone was close-by. I hoped it wouldn’t come to that and I wouldn’t need to dial emergency. Rubbing my aching tummy, I leanedContinueContinue reading “Lesson 26: My attack thoughts are attacking my invulnerability”
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Lesson 25: I do not know what anything is for
The watch glistened inside the case. It was so pretty. I had waited for a long time to buy this. Saving and scrimping through the past 6 months to own this beautiful thing. I had imagined the compliments I would get when I would wear it. The envy in my nemesis’s eye, the admiration inContinueContinue reading “Lesson 25: I do not know what anything is for”
Lesson 24: I do not perceive my own best interests
“Shall I do some silent clearing, he asked?” Yes, we both said. Readily agreeing. I muted myself. I heard my friend do the same. I wanted to scream. I wanted to shout. I wanted to be angry. I did not want to show any of this. I knew he would sense all this, and IContinueContinue reading “Lesson 24: I do not perceive my own best interests”
Lesson 23: I can escape from the world I see by giving up attack thoughts
Our laughter sailed across the room disturbing other diners and causing some to look at way with irritation. But we didn’t care. Most of the girls didn’t even notice it like I did. Sinking back into my seat, I watched them talk. I couldn’t hear their words. My mind was too busy with mine. Friends.ContinueContinue reading “Lesson 23: I can escape from the world I see by giving up attack thoughts”
Lesson 21: I am determined to see things differently
Before I could react, Ari had walked out the room. He slammed the door of his room screaming, “you are the worst mother ever.” A part of me wanted to chase him inside and shake him. His words scratched my heart. I felt dazed with rage. “How dare he speak to me this way,” screamedContinueContinue reading “Lesson 21: I am determined to see things differently”
Lesson 19: I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts.
Staring at the TV screen, I asked myself if this was what I had intended. I had not. Violence was not in my mind when I had made the speech on campus. The phone rang again. Picking it up, I turned off the vibration notification. I didn’t want to speak to anyone. Looking around, IContinueContinue reading “Lesson 19: I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts.”
Lesson 16 & 17: I have no neutral thoughts
Lesson 16: I have no neutral thoughts. Lesson 17: I see no neutral things. Muttering under my breath, I scowled at the article I was reading. How could that imbecile have been made president! How could so many people in that country think he was good! The world had gone mad. It has no senseContinueContinue reading “Lesson 16 & 17: I have no neutral thoughts”
Lesson 15: My thoughts are images that I have made
I found myself in nature today. I wanted to believe she had missed me…was waiting for me to come. But I know I was deluding myself with such thoughts. In my absence, she was herself all along. A colour here, a texture there, she had not changed her habits a bit. If anything, she hadContinueContinue reading “Lesson 15: My thoughts are images that I have made”
Lesson 13: A meaningless world engenders fear
Walking to my spot on the track, I tried to withdraw my attention from the crowd’s roaring chants. It was not my name they were saying now. But by the time I was done, it would be my name. By the time the race was done, I would have set a new record and theyContinueContinue reading “Lesson 13: A meaningless world engenders fear”
Lesson 10: My thoughts do not mean anything.
All around me was a buzz of activity. Books opened, books closed, pages flipped about frantically, nervous giggles, faces scrunched in concentration, lips pressed into a thin line. I looked around. Almost everyone seemed to be drowning in a sludge of anxiety, so thick it was impossible to come up for air and find relief.ContinueContinue reading “Lesson 10: My thoughts do not mean anything.”
Atha : Returning to the Now 