I always felt my creativity was mine. There was a sense of ownership. A feeling that – “this belongs to me”. A thought that “I am creating this”. It brought so much specialness. It added to my self-worth and value. But things have been different since my so-called skills have joined forces with the Divine. Whatever appears from that union, seems creative and beautiful to others. But to me, it has brought immense healing. It has increased my faith. It has taught me patience. It has made me experience my inner strength and light. It brings a fulfillment that no other work or activity does or has till now.
The sense of isolation, which is the underlying experience for most humans, is healed when we do things with the Divine. While we may think we are looking for success in the world, all we are truly looking for is a sense of Oneness and acceptance. We all want to feel that we are not alone. Working with the Divine heals this feeling of loneliness.
As I write or create songs with Baba & Jesus, or meditate, or do sessions for others, or create workshops, I am working with a force beyond me. I am with the source of all happiness, peace and Love. Bits of this stay with me even after I am done working. This (what originates from the Divine) and what stays with me, is sensed by the world. It is shared with the world. That is what helps bring forth healing or peace or joy as others read my work or hear my songs or do sessions with me. That is what anyone is experiencing or feeling when they see my work.
I would love to take credit for whatever comes forth. I can see that in moments I enjoy the praise. That is the egoic part of me, the part that strongly identifies itself as a writer or author or facilitator. But the part of me that is aware that the creativity is not mine, is growing larger and stronger.
– I am not the creator, I am the scribe.
This needs constant remembering. I also sensed today that humility is a polarity of the specialness we feel. I always believed humility is good. As a person, it is a good goal to aspire for. But there was a sense today that only the ego wants to be special. And it is only the ego that insists we stay humble. When we create with and for the Divine, our own mind and limited knowledge do not interfere. In that space, there is no need for either stance. Who we are, the One Being, knows neither stance.
A good way to know the difference when the ego is at work and when we are avaible for the Divine.
– Is there flow or is there a desperation/ a force/ a compulsion/ a pressure?
This is what I keep checking for. A lot of times even as I think I am working with the Divine, I pause and realise my body has gone tight. I am holding my breath. I am speedy in my work. All signs that I have forgotten. Then I just take a deep breath and return to the stillness.
Most of us use our skills to enhance our sense of separate self, the ego which wants to be great in the world. But when these skills are offered to the Divine, it can become a beautiful way to bring about spiritual awareness, if that is your goal. If your hobby is drawing, keep the paper and pencils ready and then just invite the Divine in. If your skill is dance, be alone in a room with your music and invite the Divine in. If crafts is your hobby, ask the Divine what you can make. Create space and silence within. Ask and listen. That is all you need do.
Lasting peace and joy, a sense of our worth is what everyone truly seeks. But we seem to seek it in the wrong places, inspite of a thousand reminders that the world offers us nothing. But when we offer our skills to the Universe for our spiritual growth, the result is this satisfaction we seek. There is joy creating with the Divine. Be the flute through which the Divine plays its music.
Atha : Returning to the Now 